Christmas Photos!

My 20 week belly shot (compare it to my 18 week, sheesh!), Andrea and Rex (my sister and brother-in-law), and my family!

I hope everyone had a great Christmas and wonderful New Year!!

Here she is!

It's A....

GIRL!!!!

Olivia Rose is on her way!!

She was not shy about showing the "money shot"! She is spread eagle, butt facing out in my tummy.

I couldn't be happier!

I will try to get the ultrasound pictures posted later.

New Picture!

This was taken last night. I think I am slowly starting to 'pop' and become a bit more 'rounded'. Haha, I use those words cautiously and nicely! Will be 19 weeks tomorrow, yyiipppeee!!! Ultrasound in 2 days!!!

Sick Sick Sick

All about me before bed..
So last night I went to bed with a headache... took some Tylenol, no big deal. I woke up this morning with my head throbbing and somewhat not-hungry/nauseous. So, I ate an orange and just lounged around. By 2pm, I could not stand up or bend down without getting light headed. It felt kind of like the room was spinning and I was going to t/u. So I sat down, but knew I had an Xmas party tonight. About 5pm, went to the party, ate half a salad and I was done. It hurt to hold my head up, hurt to touch my head, and I was very light headed. When I take a deep breath, my chest (in the front and back) just ache. My nose is fine, my throat doesn't hurt, etc. I only cough when I try to take a deep breath. So off I go to Walgreens with my "approved" list. 45 minutes later, the pharmacist just gave me sudaphed to open my passages since I wasn't really hurting (expect my head and chest) and no fever.
Well I get home, decide to take my temp... yup... 100.5. So didn't take a darn thing and called the on-call doc. She said I had two choices, the ER or bed rest tomorrow until I can get in for an emergency exam. She is worried about my chest and my fever. Said to take Tylenol and nothing else. So, here I am. It even hurts to put the phone to my ear there is sooo much pressure.
It's weird, I've always jumped to Nyquil or anything when I'm sick. Now, it's not about me, how our mind changes is amazing..
We didn't have school all last week so I feel sooo guilty about tomorrow, but I have a wonderful team who is very worried.
Sorry that was sooo long, just need some prayers and thoughts.

Sad Day..

I'm not sure where my hormones are running today, but it's been a tough one. My mom leaves tomorrow for a week and I know that is part of it.
So XDAH and I haven't talked all week. We can usually send text messages making small talk, etc. It's been since Monday. I know he is pursuing another relationship, and that is his right. As he tells me, if I won't take him back, then he is not going to sit around and wait. I can't blame him. I know when my time comes to dating again, I won't want him bugging me also. But for some reason, I have really wanted to talk to him today. It won't do any good, I am not even sure why, but I have just broke down and cried so much today. I wish I had answers. I'm finally realizing I have lost my best friend. The one I laughed with, played games with, went out to eat with, just anything. I can't even target whether it is specifically XDAH I am crying over or just feelings in general. I hope that makes sense. As the holiday gets closer, traditions start brewing and I know it's not going to be the same this year and that just makes me weep. I never wanted to be the one in my family to get divorced, much less raise a child alone. And now here I am.
Then I start thinking, if I really don't want to be back with him, why is this really so hard? I should be happy knowing I am not in a troubled relationship anymore, but it's just not that easy.
Thanks for listening. I hope everyone is having a great weekend!!

Preggo Dreams!

I thought I would fill you all in on my very vivid dream last night..

So (in my dream) I gave birth last night to Joel Copper. (haha). Before then though I was going through a wedding ceremony and crying because I didn't really want to marry the man I was marrying, yet the baby had to have a dad (XDAH maybe?) So we got married and the next day I had a bouncing baby BOY. Yet, he was not an infant. More like 4-5 months old. He was already holding his head up and sitting in a high chair. We were taking a tour of an ambulance so he could see what it was like (?). If I said a word he would repeat it, like microwave and ambulance. Smart kid!!! Haha, yet I was freaking out because I had forgotten to bring (we were at my Aunt Joyce's house!) how much he was supposed to eat duing his first week, like ounces. So I gave him some applesauce.
Oh man, the dream was clear as day and still is! Haha, anyone a dream interpreter out there?!

Today's Appt.

Went to the doctor today. When we got there (Mom, me, and DAH) she had just been called to go deliver a baby. Well, that was going to suck. But, the receptionist told me the nurse would still see me. So I get called back, step on the horrid scale, pee in a cup, and wait patiently. Low and behold, here comes the doc!!! She had already delivered the baby and came back!! 30 minutes tops! It was insane! But anyway, all is good. I have only gained 8 pounds which is awesome. I'm pretty proud of that assuming I haven't done anything to prevent weight gain, at all! Blood pressure is still perfect. It has always been around 120/80. Yiipppeee!!

So the past few days I have been very nervous about the baby. Like feeling nothing is happening. So I was very scared. Especially since I haven't been able to hear the heartbeat with my doppler. Well, Fletcher told me not to be worried at all and she would get Shelly. Well, Shelly is the nurse who found it right off at my 10 week apt. Sure enough, ding ding, she got it!! I was soooo relieved I wanted to cry. It was 150bpm. Andrea believes that is "boy" range. Haha. The nurse then proceeded to write "baby" on my tummy where it was so that mom and I could find it at home with my doppler. And we did, right off!! Yippppeeee!

The best news is the BIG ultrasound is scheduled for December 21st!! They wanted to make it after Xmas and I said no way, so the best they could do was the Friday before, fair enough!! It is at 10am and I have to have a full bladder. I will have to start drinking early, haha!

Okay, now you're all caught up! :)

Thought I'd share some belly pictures. Time to start taking a lot more! Things are GROWING! haha

6 weeks and almost 15 weeks

Need a Good Rant

So, in my backyard is a huge 27' foot swimming pool. My DAH HAD to have this pool last July. It was doomed from the beginning. It rained for 3 weeks, prolonging the installation big time. Then my backyard was completely ruined. He "promised" to fix it and work on it and blah blah blah. We didn't even have a ladder all summer. We had to use a lawn chair to get in the pool! WTF, 4 months later, it is still a WRECK. And WHERE is DAH?! Oh that's right, living with his girlfriend. So what did my parents and I get stuck with today? Closing down his damn pool!! I am soooo pissed off at him. I didn't really care to have the pool in the first place, now my backyard is ruined, I am out money for closing down this pool, and not to mention making my parents work extra hard for his damn mistakes. UGH! Sorry, I am just sooo pissed off.

Thanks for listening!

Just an Update...

I ate SIX bowls of Olive Garden Salad. HAHA!! Oh man, it was sooooo good!! Our waiter was a little on the feminine side, but he took care of the pregnant woman! I had fresh salad at all times with extra dressing and lemons! It was great!

Mom and I went maternity shopping yesterday. Things are starting to fit a little better. Pants are still a little bit big, but I'm sure I'll fill them in soon, haha. I used my bday money and then some. But it was great! Three shirts and a pair of khakis. And then going back today for a pair of chocolate khakis. YEAAAHH for clothes that fit!!

Okay, off to work... sinc eI have to be there in about 15 minutes, haha. Oops.

My Birthday Weekend

Hi there! Last Friday was my birthday and it was a great time!! My kids were so nice to be on Friday, haha. I was also in a good mood, so it probably made them feel good as well. I got lots of nice presents from teachers, students, friends, and family! :)

Then Friday night I spent the evening at Rhonda's house. She had FIESTA party. Not just for me, but I would like to think that! :) Haha

Then Saturday I got off my booty and cleaned the scrapbook room. I hadn't touched that room since all the drama occurred. I even scrapped a little in my preggo book. It was great. Then Sat. night then Rhonda and her family took me to eat Chinese (YUM-O) and then out to see Martian Child. It was a very touching movie.

Now, I am CRAAAAAVVIINNNNG Olive Garden salad and have NO one to go with! It's killing me. Mom and dad were SUPPOSED to get home early enough to have dinner with me. Well, at 5:45 they just left the lake. ARGH!

Hmm... maybe Olive Garden to go? HAHAHA

Quick Post

Hi there! I'm still alive and around! For the past few days I am just trying to survive morning sickness, which is really late night sickness. I have also started feeling oohhh sooo very sleepy by 7pm! It really puts a damper on my evenings!
For those of you with myspace, I created one. I figured it was a great way to re-connect with old friends.
So, I want to share my space with all of you!

www.myspace.com/worldofmeredith

Doctor's Visit

Well, the doctor's visit went fabulous. The very nice nurse weighed me on the not very nice scale!! Haha, in my doctor's words "That thing is evil. It is not your friend. You will see numbers you have never seen before and hope to never see again unless you are pregnant." haha, she is not concerned with weight gain at all. Whew!! It was about 6 pounds. I guess 6 pounds in the first trimester is not that bad, right? ;)
The very nice nurse poked on my tummy a bit and said okay, this is going to be cold, SQUIRT, then she found the heartbeat RIGHT OFF. It was awesome! I once again got chills and feel that I will everytime I hear it. I was so happy there wasn't any scare. I guess the little alien is still growing. I go back in 4 weeks, and then at 18 weeks have my big ultrasound which is when I guess she will run all the tests? So that will put us around the secondweek of December. :) Just to update everyone.. :)

New Hair!

These are actually horrible pictures, but you get the idea of the hair. The second picture it looks really plastered to my head, but I promise it doesn't look that bad in person. Haha, oh well, you get the idea...

waiting... waiting..

I'm sitting here, as patiently as possible, until my parents are home!!! Aaahhhh, I am leaving in about 10 minutes to go get them dinner and meet them at their house. I have missed them sooooo much!!

Soooo yesterday I went drastic! ;) My hair was about to the top of my shoulders, long enough to put it in a ponytail and blonde. Lots of blonde highlights. Today? Shorter than my chin and DARK brown!! I told my lady I wanted to be my natural color when my roots started to show so that it would all blend it. Weelll, it's darker than I imagined, but it does match my eyebrows!!! I absolutely love the cut, it fits me! ;) Now I feel like a runaway who had to change her appearence to protect her identity. LOL. I will have mom take pics tonight and will try to post them tomorrow or so.

I went to WalMart tonight and bought stuff to make stew. I've never made stew, so now I have all the ingredients and have no idea what to do with them. I'm sure I'll get some wonderful advice!

Tomorrow is my second doctor's visit. I can't wait to hear the heartbeat again. I HATE not feeling the baby yet and not hearing the HB often. It makes me feel, besides the constant late night crumminess, that nothing is going on. I also plan on buying a heartbeat dopplar thing off Ebay so I can hear it anytime I want! :)

Will keep everyone posted. I sure still need those GIRL vibes!!

Lots of love..

Pretty Quiet Week...

How your baby's growing:Your baby, just over 1 1/2 inches long and about the size of a fig, is now almost fully formed. Her hands will soon open and close into fists, tiny tooth buds are beginning to appear under her gums, and some of her bones are beginning to harden.She's already busy kicking and stretching, and her tiny movements are so effortless they look like water ballet. These movements will become more frequent as her body grows and becomes more developed and functional. You won't feel your baby's acrobatics for another month or two — nor will you notice the hiccupping that may be happening now that her diaphragm is forming.

I'm slacking, I'm sorry!!!

Haha... it is almost 11 weeks, but here is the 10 week update!! Truckin' right along!! Will write more later. Feeling great, sickness in the mornings mainly, but no barfin'!! :)

How your baby's growing:Though he's barely the size of a kumquat — a little over an inch or so long, crown to bottom — and weighs less than a quarter of an ounce, your baby has now completed the most critical portion of his development. This is the beginning of the so-called fetal period, a time when the tissues and organs in his body rapidly grow and mature.He's swallowing fluid and kicking up a storm. Vital organs — including his kidneys, intestines, brain, and liver (now making red blood cells in place of the disappearing yolk sac) — are in place and starting to function, though they'll continue to develop throughout your pregnancy.If you could take a peek inside your womb, you'd spot minute details, like tiny nails forming on fingers and toes (no more webbing) and peach-fuzz hair beginning to grow on tender skin.In other developments: Your baby's limbs can bend now. His hands are flexed at the wrist and meet over his heart, and his feet may be long enough to meet in front of his body. The outline of his spine is clearly visible through translucent skin, and spinal nerves are beginning to stretch out from his spinal cord. Your baby's forehead temporarily bulges with his developing brain and sits very high on his head, which measures half the length of his body. From crown to rump, he's about 1 1/4 inches long. In the coming weeks, your baby will again double in size — to nearly 3 inches.

Sorry for not updating!!

Hey there!

So it is Sunday and A LOT has happened since the last time I blogged. My sister arrived here Wednesday night to keep me company throughout court and the weekend. In a rough run down, we have not eaten at home all week!! From Red Lobster, to Wendy's, to Sonic, to Pizza Hut, to Chili's, to Olive Garden, haha. It has been GREAT!

So court on Thursday... I didn't have to do much. Mr. Laywer took care of it all. DAH represented himself, and did a very good job at it actually. Long story short, after the judge crunched all the numbers, DAH has to pay for my car payment, car insurance, life insurance, and half of the mortgage. This will help me tremendously. He was not happy at all, as if I am just out to get him. I really didn't do anything spectacular to get his money, just did the same thing as him. Provided all the necessary documents. I just hope I don't have trouble getting the money from him each month.

Thursday night we went downtown to the Regatta festival. It was okay, but sneaking into the VIP section was even more fun!

Friday Andrea taught my class most of the day. Haha, she did a GREAT job but I have a feeling I am in for it next Friday!! (I will be in Texas, that's another blog another day). Then Friday night we went to Babies R Us and started a registry. Yeah, it is way too early, but my sis was here and we were bored, so why not! Haha, it was loads of fun.

Saturday we lounged around and went out to dinner and bowling with Rhonda for her birthday.

Then today we lounged around a bit more, went to Granny's for breakfast and she made me my very own pumpkin pie! :)

DAH came Sat. and tonight to get all of his stuff out of the shed, garage, and attic. I officially have my garage door opener back and feel relieved. The hard times are definitely still to come. I have been pretty sad and emotional today. I just wish I could see my future. I have come to realize though, DAH deserves someone who does not know his past and does not have to concerned about trust issues or anything else. He deserves someone who will love him unconditionally with no doubts. I need someone who I don't have to constantly worry about running out on me, and someone who will also love me unconditionally. Yes folks, it's going to be hard.

Pregnancy wise, I feel great. I hadn't gained much weight before Andrea got here, but not so sure anymore!!

Sorry for the looooong post, but here is the 9 week update! :)



How your baby's growing:Your new resident is nearly an inch long — about the size of a grape — and weighs just a fraction of an ounce. She's starting to look more and more human. Her essential body parts are accounted for, though they'll go through plenty of fine-tuning in the coming months. Other changes abound: Your baby's heart finishes dividing into four chambers, and the valves start to form — as do her tiny teeth. The embryonic "tail" is completely gone. Your baby's organs, muscles, and nerves are kicking into gear. The external sex organs are there but won't be distinguishable as male or female for another few weeks. Her eyes are fully formed, but her eyelids are fused shut and won't open until 27 weeks. She has tiny earlobes, and her mouth, nose, and nostrils are more distinct. The placenta is developed enough now to take over most of the critical job of producing hormones. Now that your baby's basic physiology is in place, she's poised for rapid weight gain.

Fun in the Rain

We got a very nice relaxing rain last night. For some reason, I felt I needed to go walking in it. It was coming down pretty good, but not a down pour. Anyway, walked down to Rhonda's, and then we went walking. It felt good to be out. I don't really consider myself depressed or "holed up" in my house, but it did feel good to get out and talk. Found out DAH created a Myspace back in June. If you know anything about our relationship from the past, Myspace was completely off limits in our marriage. Well, guess he decided he wanted to end the marriage awhile ago. That had me fuming all night last night. And then some, excuse me, skanky fat girl commenting on his pictures, lol. Oh man, it's okay, just one more thing to keep me mad. I sent him a message telling him he better not EVER try to get back with me since he created a Myspace back in June. His response? "I made it to see if you would ever find it, I never used it". Hahahahaha, riiiiiiiight. What a jerk. Chalk one up to my list of "new husband" requirements.
Anyways, got the house cleaned last night. No more signs of DAH. I cleaned all the pee around the toilet he always seemed to miss. Cleaned up all his little hairs from shaving. Also spackled and painted the holes above the mantle from the Plasma. I felt much better. Was completely worn out from cleaning, but it looks and makes me feel better.
Today I need to be outside. My garden looks horrible. My tree is supposed to be turning a beautiful red and instead the leaves are turning black, so I watered it. I know, Mom, probably a little too late at this point. So now the garden is bogged down with black leaves and my Marigold heads need to be picked off. Blah, I don't feel like it though.

Well, enough from me today. Have a great Sunday everyone!

It's a Kidney Bean!!

How your baby's growing: Webbed fingers and toes are poking out from your baby's hands and feet, his eyelids practically cover his eyes, breathing tubes extend from his throat to the branches of his developing lungs, and his "tail" is just about gone. In his brain, nerve cells are branching out to connect with one another, forming primitive neural pathways. You may be daydreaming about your baby as one sex or the other, but the external genitals still haven't developed enough to reveal whether you're having a boy or a girl. Either way, your baby — about the size of a kidney bean — is constantly moving and shifting, though you still can't feel it.

I'm Still Alive!

Hi there fellow readers. It has been awhile, but I am still here. Right now I'm crying because my mommy and daddy are leaving me! For 3 weeks they are going to be gone and it is going to be sooo hard. It's like my best friends are leaving. I know I have to be strong and they are going to have so much fun, but it doesn't make it any easier.
So, intuition tells me this baby may be a boy. As you all know, I really want a girl, but I'm feeling boy. Don't ask me what I am feeling either, because I couldn't tell you anything. Aparently DAH's Grandmother also had a dream I was pregnant and had a boy before she even knew I was pregnant. Aparently, like my aunt, she is never wrong when it comes to babies. Only time will tell and I suppose all I really want is a healthy and happy baby at the end of this long and healthy nine months. DAH expressed today to me that he is really excited to have a baby. Completely threw me off, but deep down inside I am extremely pleased. My child deserves a father and just as I deserve a baby, so does he. This baby was made with happiness and joy. I hope that is all it will ever know. I asked how much he wanted to be involved, and he said as much as possible. So we'll see. On the other hand, I will not allow myself to get let down. If I keep my standards low, he can't dissapoint me.
I also had a wonderful weekend with my sister. I miss you dearly! I wish she was so much closer, but I know she has her reasons and we still see each other often. Matter of fact, she will be here next weekend, and then I will be down there the weekend after that.
Well folks, that's all I've got! I guess tomorrow will be 8 weeks (wow!) so I'll have my weekly update then! Love to you all! :)

We're Moving Right Along! :)

How your baby's growing:The big news this week: Hands and feet are emerging from developing arms and legs — although they look more like paddles at this point than the tiny, pudgy extremities you're daydreaming about holding and tickling. Technically, your baby is still considered an embryo and has something of a small tail, which is an extension of her tailbone. The tail will disappear within a few weeks, but that's the only thing getting smaller. Your baby has doubled in size since last week and now measures half an inch long, about the size of a blueberry.If you could see inside your womb, you'd spot eyelid folds partially covering her peepers, which already have some color, as well as the tip of her nose and tiny veins beneath parchment-thin skin. Both hemispheres of your baby's brain are growing, and her liver is churning out red blood cells until her bone marrow forms and takes over this role. She also has an appendix and a pancreas, which will eventually produce the hormone insulin to aid in digestion. A loop in your baby's growing intestines is bulging into her umbilical cord, which now has distinct blood vessels to carry oxygen and nutrients to and from her tiny body.

My Little Olive!!

I was only one day off, I am officially 6w5d!! Due date is May 15th! Heartbeat was 133bpm. Normal range is in between 110-170bpm. So, healthy baby!! You can see the yolk sac and the fetal pole (baby). If you look closely, the little light bubble on the right is the yolk sac. And the other blob on the left close to the sac wall is Olive! :) Grandma Janice is OVERJOYED!! DAH was also there and seemed as in awe as the two of us. I'm glad he went. I hope this is the start of a good relationship between him and his child.

Great Pictures and Thoughts!

These are forty weeks, all drawn together. Looks like a loooong time, right? Well, cross off 6 of those blocks!!

This soooo describes me right now!

And this!! Oh man, is it really supposed to start this soon? Oy vey!!

Fatigue and Nausea

Well... it has all kicked in. As I sit here I am extremely tired, well, just feel worn out. Yet, if I go lay down, I can't sleep. I feel like I am in a daze. And this stomach stuff is no fun. I need to blog about it so I can remind myself for the next baby that it wasn't all bells and whistles. Haha, I'm kidding, I guess I don't have it as bad as others! But if I don't eat about every two-three hours, I get very light headed and my stomach hurts pretty bad. Yet, if I eat too much, I feel like crap too. So somewhere there must be a happy medium and I'm sure I'll find it somewhere. Mom and I went shopping yesterday and scrapbooked. I am finally caught up on Chloe's album. I went from Christmas to July in a matter of 3 hours! Haha. I suppose I will start collecting stuff for the baby album, of course starting with pregnancy.
I am off to Target today to look at their stickers and things and to buy the new candy corn Hershey Kisses. I LOVE candy corn and can't WAIT to try these!! ;)
Well fellow readers, have a great Sunday and enjoy the rest of your weekend! :)
Only 2 days until my appt!! Start praying she will do an ultrasound, I want to see my little Olive sooo bad! :)

Another Week!!

Your pregnancy: 6 weeks
Click to enlarge How your baby's growing: This week's major developments: The nose, mouth, and ears that you'll spend so much time kissing in eight months are beginning to take shape. If you could see into your uterus, you'd find an oversize head and dark spots where your baby's eyes and nostrils are starting to form. His emerging ears are marked by small depressions on the sides of the head, and his arms and legs by protruding buds. His heart is beating about 100 to 160 times a minute — almost twice as fast as yours — and blood is beginning to course through his body. His intestines are developing, and the bud of tissue that will give rise to his lungs has appeared. His pituitary gland is forming, as are the rest of his brain, muscles, and bones. Right now, your baby is a quarter of an inch long, about the size of a lentil bean.See what's going on in your uterus this week.

Worthless Court Time

Well, we got there and when he walked in I got pretty emotional. Then they kicked everyone out that was not on the dockett. So there went mom and there went my emotions. Anyway, it turned out that they just gave us papers saying they would see us in divorce court on Oct. 11. So I don't know if they dismissed everything or felt since we were already getting a divorce they would handle it then. I dunno. I did ask him if he wanted to be involved with the baby appointments and he said yes. So we'll see. I would love for him to be involved. It is his child too and it is important for me to give this child and this man a chance to be involved with each other. My child deserves a dad.

So that was it! Now I'm back at work and very sleepy!

Important Dates

I thought I would update with important dates in my life so everyone would know! :)

Sept. 21 - VPO Hearing (Don't really feel it is necessary anymore, but it can't hurt I guess)

Sept. 25 - My first OB Appt.

Sept. 28 - Mom RETIRES!!

Oct. 11 - First Hearing Date (To get Temporary Orders)

Just so ya know! :)

Oy Vey!

And so it begins... I got sooo nauseous this morning. My thyroid pill requires me to not eat for 30 minutes after taking the pill. I thought I was going to die. I get so hungry in the morning and it sucks to not be able to eat. So, tomorrow, if I feel like I did, I'm just going to eat! Pppbbbttt on the thyroid pill! I ate some Eggos, drank some Sprite, and then ate some crackers. I am feeling a little better, but it is definitely a stay-in-your-seat-and-work type of day. I am getting soooo anxious for my appointment on Tuesday. I really hope she does an ultrasound. I would love to put my mind at a little ease and see/hear the heartbeat. Tonight is cooking class, yay! Tempura and Rice/Chicken bowls. Yum! Well, off to teach Multiplication! Ohh, what fun! :)

Tuesday!

Well, one day down, four more to go. I went to the fair last night with Rhonda and her kiddos. Had lots of fun, but boy was I tired. But I did eat my Indian Taco and brought home a Candy Apple!
So I enter the building this morning and I have a little girl waiting outside for me (teacher's kid). She asked me what took so long. I am usually here about 7:40ish, but today it was closer to 8:15. She had been waiting since 7:30am. Haha, I am loved! :)
This may be waaaay to early, but things sitting on my tummy are already bothering me. I know it's bloating, but I really think the next pant size is coming soon. Its really uncomfortable when I sit down. This sucks. I know to the non-pregnant people, your thinking, she is just complaining and making up symptoms in her head. Well, pppbbbttt on you! :P
I received a wonderful journal and Chicken Soup book from my sister and Bro-in-law yesterday. It brought tears to my eyes, this is going to be wonderful! :)
Now if I could just stop worrying about all the bad things that can go wrong.
Have a fabulous day to all my readers!

The Darn Body!

Well, I decided this doom-day morning needed its own post. My body has officially started playing tricks on me. Well, I don't know if they are called tricks because they are real, but their just evil. My womanly assets have started to grow. I noticed this morning when the bra just didn't quite look right. After adjusting and adjusting, it just didn't do anything. Well, I guess it is about time for a new one. Also, my digestive tract is aaaalll messed up. I am sooo bloated and having issues with bowels that my belly hurts. I blame this on Rhonda because she is the one who kept telling me... just wait... it will happen.. just wait. I have gained 1.4 pounds and I believe it is all in my intestines! Haha. Ah, the woes.

Still praying for a sticky Olive, keep those prayers coming!

Comments

I changed my comment section to where anyone can leave a comment. I'm sorry it has been on Blog People Only. Now it's for everyone! :)

Go Figure

Well guess who is feeling guilty and wants me back. Haha. DAH has been apologizing and telling me we can work this out for the past hour. He is down the street at a friends house. I hope he leaves me alone tonight. It makes me soooo mad. He even said he regrets the hateful things he has said about the baby. I believe someone has made him mad or dumped him. That is the only thing I can think of why the change of heart. Rhonda thinks maybe him and his dad got in a fight and he can't go back home. I don't care what it is. I'm all pissed off again. Yes he can be a great guy and make me happy, but how many more times must I catch him and be told he is cheating? TOO MANY!! I now have another being to protect from him and me and this baby come first! Ugh! Going to bed, goodnight!

BTW, I have a terrible belly ache and I strongly feel it is stress related. I was fine until he started messaging me. Off to sleep....

5 Week Info! :)

How your baby's growing:Deep in your uterus your embryo is growing at a furious pace. At this point, he's about the size of a sesame seed, and he looks more like a tiny tadpole than a human. He's now made up of three layers — the ectoderm, the mesoderm, and the endoderm — which will later form all of his organs and tissues.The neural tube — from which your baby's brain, spinal cord, nerves, and backbone will sprout — is starting to develop in the top layer, called the ectoderm. This layer will also give rise to his skin, hair, nails, mammary and sweat glands, and tooth enamel.His heart and circulatory system begin to form in the middle layer, or mesoderm. (This week, in fact, his tiny heart begins to divide into chambers and beat and pump blood.) The mesoderm will also form your baby's muscles, cartilage, bone, and subcutaneous (under skin) tissue.The third layer, or endoderm, will house his lungs, intestines, and rudimentary urinary system, as well as his thyroid, liver, and pancreas. In the meantime, the primitive placenta and umbilical cord, which deliver nourishment and oxygen to your baby, are already on the job.

Yeah for Garage Sales!!

Yesterday I went to a Garage Sale in my neighborhood. They had a huge bucket of Maternity Clothes, all for two bucks a piece! I bought four pairs of pants and three shirts. I got home and "tried" them on. Two of the pairs of pants were already too small in the thigh region (go figure!). So this morning I took them back. I knew someone else could use them. So she let me trade out the two pants for a bouncy chair! I already have one bouncy chair, but my friend Christa informed me I will also need one for Grandma's. So true! Anyway, bargains!

Rhonda also suprised me with a baby gift last night. One of those tummy time play mats! She is sooo funny. I'm glad this is going to be fun for the two of us. Haha! Thank you!!

So, I have to be at work at 9:45 and I woke up this morning at 7:30 wide awake. I hate that! I love sleeping!! After Sylvan I have a birthday party to go to and then we are going to Disney On Ice at the Fair!! Yipppeeeeee.... out of the house time! Haha, nevermind going with a 6 year old and 4 year old, hehe. It'll be lots of fun!

Tomorrow it is house cleaning and mowing day! Have a great day friends and family!

Good Morning!

It's FRIDAY!!! All of us in teacher land... one more week down!!! Woohooo!!! So, for clarification on my little Olive... (Ginger) I thought the nickname was cute while she was growing! Haha, you know like people call their babies peanut or bean.... well, what about Olive? Not little green people dancing about, haha!! Also, more clarification, if it is a boy, it will NOT be Oliver. Haha

So I was walking around the neighborhood last night with Rhonda and Marie and I was thinking about my symptoms. I thought I should go ahead and blog about my first week symptoms so that when I get pregnant again (ever!) or maybe my SISTER gets pregnant, we can compare. The 3-4 DPO I got extrememly stuffy with my nose, watery eyes, etc. I thought it was allergies. Since I am also a baby-phanatic I was reading up on every symptom all the time. Well, cold-like symptoms were a sign of early pregnancy. I was tired and had bad headaches. (Now these were symptoms before my DAH went AWOL on me. But of course continued after that too.) Now, TMI ALERT, I also had a reallllly bad yeast infection. I had not had one in FOREVER and thought it was really weird. Once again, I googled it, sure enough it is a symptom of early pregnancy. Now the week after that which would be the week of Sept 3-7 I completely ignored anything I might have had. Of course I was in la la land at this point so I have no clue besides the YI. Well, sometime during that week (if that week would have been "normal") I would have been taking a HPT every single day, of course I didn't. So when I took it Saturday (Sept. 8) it was BRIGHT positive and VERY quickly!!

Whew, sorry for the novel! I am feeling pretty good this morning. I guess I know it is Friday. I am still battling fleas with my dogs. It makes me feel gross and I know it is killing them. They have been medicated twice and bathed and vacuumed, etc. They are still scratching this morning. I am throwing out all bedding today and getting the carpet stuff this afternoon. Please pray for a flealess house, I know, it makes me sound nasty, but really I don't know where or when they came!!!

Okay I love you all!! Have a great FRIDAY!

Think Pink!!

I believe I have chosen Olivia Rose for the little one growing in my tummy. Her nickname can be Olive! :)

Now for a boy, I don't know, shouldn't matter since I am having a girl! :)

Tough Night

So, I am having a rough night. Went and told Grandma Karen (more on that in a bit), got to spend some nice time with my folks, and then came home. I'm starting to feel sleepy and probably hormonal. But I had a good cry tonight... my thoughts were..
1. Is it selfish of me to bring a child into this world knowing it has a DA Father?
2. Am I really going to be able to do this on my own?
3. Why is DAH so inconsiderate and disrespectful?
I had dreamed of the day he would rub my tummy and feel the baby kick. Now I know he has ruined that for both of us, heck, all of us. It just doesn't seem fair. As tears are rolling down my cheeks, I know I have to be strong and I don't think it is even a matter of this specific husband. I think it is just thoughts in general. I feel like I am cheating this baby out of a "normal" life. Don't get wrong, I am LOVING the thought of being a mom and I know it is going to be great, but I'm sure these thoughts are completely normal. It is still just really hard to grasp.

Karen was dumbfounded. She wasn't sure how to react to the pregnancy. She was far more emotional than I thought she would be. I know in a way she must feel part way responsible for her son's actions. Of course she is NOT!!! DAH made these choices on his own and no one could have stopped ihim, obviously. I think she felt DAH had robbed her from another grandbaby. I definitely reassured her I would be around for her to see me get fat, woes of pregnancy, birth, and of course she is the GRANDMA!! I know things will be just fine, just keep praying.

I also went to Rhonda's and broke the news to Chloe and Hannah. I told Hannah I had a birthday present for her. I told her I had a baby in my belly. She instantly asked if it was a girl or boy. Haha, gotta love kids! She then asked if she was going to get to see it and Chloe promptly said "Yes Hannah but it STAYS at MERE'S!!!". OOOHHHH boy this is going to be fun.
Which brings me to my next thoughts which make me cry: Chloe.
Dear Lord I love that little girl sooo much and I also know she was cheated out of a "normal" fatherly life just as my child will be. Don't get me wrong she has an AMAZING stepdad who has done sooo much more than anyone would have ever imagined!! As much as her and DAH didn't bond, he has at least been constant in her life for about 3 years now. I am sure we have many long talks and questions coming our way and I just pray for guidance and patience to help her through this. I know she will also be a big hemotional elp to me.

Well, now since I am all emotional again, I need to go to sleep.

Lots of love to my family and friends. I miss you sooo much sister!!!! :)

It's Official!

The bloodwork came back positive! Imagine that! I was so excited to hear back from the nurse. She said my HcG levels (the pregnancy hormone) was in the 1,000's which is a good strong number. My first OB appt. is September 25th at 3:30pm.

We told Granny and Grandpa last night. They were super excited about the baby. They were sad to hear about the divorce but I know I have their support 100%! They had lots of questions, but I was able to answer them all which was encouraging to me. I am so relieved!

Everyone at school is also very supportive. One of my teammates bought me some pink pacificers this morning and told me to keep thinking pink. They are soooo adorable!

Now I need to find the time to go tell DAH's mom. She is also going to be sooo excited to take this journey with me.

That's all for now, gotta go teach! :)

Way To Go Oklahoma Laws!!

Back to work today! I did tell everyone at work today. Some say it may be way too early to be telling people, but I know I also need their support and excitement. I also found out today from the lawyer a few things..
1. DAH (dumbass husband, as he will be referred to) can sign over all rights for custody and visitation. Although, he CANNOT sign over his financial obligations. The mother is the only one who can relieve him any financial obligations.
2. My divorce will not be final until the child is born. Seems fine to me, that means his temporary support will last longer and I and the child is covered in healthcare.

God has lots of plans for each of us. To us it may seem very confusing, to him, it's all laid out straight.

I went to the OB today to confirm my pregnancy. I should be able to call back in the morning to find out the results. I am still carrying one of the 5 pregnancy tests in my purse. Haha, it still doesn't seem real to me. I have so many supportive family members and friends, it's amazing. I hope when it is time to tell the extended family they all jump on the support bandwagon.

No symptoms yet. Still gassy and crampy at times. I drank a lot of water today, which was not easy!! It's amazing to see my mind go in overdrive to start thinking of another being that is living and growing inside me. Truly a blessing!

4 weeks:
You may be just finding out that you're pregnant and already your baby is the size of a poppy seed. The most dramatic and vulnerable period in her development begins this week and continues for the next six. During this time, all of your baby's organs will begin to develop and some will start to function. While your baby is in this embryonic period, she's particularly susceptible to anything that might interfere with her development. The primitive placenta is made up of two layers at this point. Also present are the amniotic sac, which houses your baby, the amniotic fluid, which cushions her as she grows, and the yolk sac, which produces your baby's red blood cells

I'm Pregnant!!

Well, I created a blog to follow along with my divorce and pregnancy.

It's day two of my known pregnancy. From the calculators I have done, I believe I am due around May 16th. Perfect timing for a school teacher. It still hasn't really sank in even though I have four positive pregnancy tests sitting on my counter. I am still holding anger towards my H because I know he thinks he can just walk away. But on the other hand, I don't want to hold him here either. If he feels he doesn't need to be in the child's life, then by all means, step aside.

I moved back in my house last night. I did not sleep well at all. I was up every 3 hours just tossing and turning. I hope it gets better.

Well, off to do some errands and be productive. :)